And she looks out her window...
with hope in her glazed eyes...
and all she can see...
are mountains of disappointments...
and then see closes her eyes...
and breathes in the 'air'...
and makes herself believe...
that there exists a valley beyond those...
beyond the disappointments...beyond despair...
and there exists a winding path...
through those mountains...
that will lead her there...
someday...someway...will one day lead her there...
and she opens her eyes...
and the heart smiles...
she walks away as the mind mocks...
at the foolish optimism of the heart...
for the heart never gives up...
for the heart never learns...
for the heart believes what the mind negates...
and bleeds when it is hurt...
the girl looks in to the mirror...
into eyes that blaze...
and tell stories...
of all the times the heart bled...
and she smirks
and yet again...
quitens her mind...
lets the heart win over her...
once again...
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
Sunday, March 22, 2009
WAIT, will you???WAIT!!
Life is a long wait.
Think about it.
Your mother waited 9 long months to get you to this fancy chauvinistic world where you just waited a bit more.
You waited for the school bus, for the lunch break and for the school over bell. Damn that bell was always delayed, I am sure that was a conspiracy. At 11 you waited to be sweet 16 (ok what’s the deal about 16 anways?) and at 16 you waited to be 18. 18, the mother of all ages, when you get to have your very own car! But then at 18, you realized that you cant own the car you dreamt of so you got to wait a bit more!
Then you saw the oh so alluring whiskey bottle, the one that the shopkeeper said you got to be 21 to buy. So then you decided to wait again. For 21. In between you waited for your results. Waited, peed in your pants while doing it. Your heart beat would scale to 160/min and you almost had a fatal heart attack before it came out. But you survived cause you had to see the fateful hour when you have a F on your report card.
Oh well, at 21 you are graduated and all ready to face this world with a degree and then you wait for JOB. Ohhh and you wait for a job interview. (This is what I am doing RIGHT ABOUT NOW) So you wait for 5 hours, with a smile plastered on your face making it look like the most fun thing to do. Oh well, you have learnt how to fake it by now. So your are bored, hungry, tired and your left leg cant stop twitching cause you are nervous but you say ‘ hey, no problem, take your time!’ (I am never getting the job after this, am I? they are apparently going to read my blog) And after that, you wait for the results, doesn’t end does it?
At 25, you wait for your soulmate. And I am sure your soulmate who is as lazy as you are is waiting too. So basically, the more impatient of you is going to give up and marry the first indolent person he/she finds. And I am hoping, that by this time you ve gotten lucky and aren’t waiting for the first night of lust. If you are, wow you know all about waiting don’t you?
Between 30-45 you wait for some 100 different mundane things. If you are a housewife you are predominantly waiting for the 9 pm serial every night. And If you are working, you wait for the promotion or your boss to die. Whichever is sooner. You also wait for the prices to go down so that you can buy a new house, a new car, a new stove, a new dog, a new spouse maybe? You also got to get your kids married. So wait for your son to make this decision. And you son has this commitment phobia. So best of luck, you need it.
After 45, you wait for retirement. Those days when you can sit by beach and watch the sun go down and the stars come out. Basically the day when you can abuse the shit out of the guy who got the promotion which you deserved and walk off in all pride. Good fun I am sure.
And what after that? Your grandchildren’s marriage, I am sure. That’s what my granny is hoping for. Too much pressure!! And then eternal salvation? Or may be a new life where the wait continues?
Who knows?
Will wait and watch :)
Think about it.
Your mother waited 9 long months to get you to this fancy chauvinistic world where you just waited a bit more.
You waited for the school bus, for the lunch break and for the school over bell. Damn that bell was always delayed, I am sure that was a conspiracy. At 11 you waited to be sweet 16 (ok what’s the deal about 16 anways?) and at 16 you waited to be 18. 18, the mother of all ages, when you get to have your very own car! But then at 18, you realized that you cant own the car you dreamt of so you got to wait a bit more!
Then you saw the oh so alluring whiskey bottle, the one that the shopkeeper said you got to be 21 to buy. So then you decided to wait again. For 21. In between you waited for your results. Waited, peed in your pants while doing it. Your heart beat would scale to 160/min and you almost had a fatal heart attack before it came out. But you survived cause you had to see the fateful hour when you have a F on your report card.
Oh well, at 21 you are graduated and all ready to face this world with a degree and then you wait for JOB. Ohhh and you wait for a job interview. (This is what I am doing RIGHT ABOUT NOW) So you wait for 5 hours, with a smile plastered on your face making it look like the most fun thing to do. Oh well, you have learnt how to fake it by now. So your are bored, hungry, tired and your left leg cant stop twitching cause you are nervous but you say ‘ hey, no problem, take your time!’ (I am never getting the job after this, am I? they are apparently going to read my blog) And after that, you wait for the results, doesn’t end does it?
At 25, you wait for your soulmate. And I am sure your soulmate who is as lazy as you are is waiting too. So basically, the more impatient of you is going to give up and marry the first indolent person he/she finds. And I am hoping, that by this time you ve gotten lucky and aren’t waiting for the first night of lust. If you are, wow you know all about waiting don’t you?
Between 30-45 you wait for some 100 different mundane things. If you are a housewife you are predominantly waiting for the 9 pm serial every night. And If you are working, you wait for the promotion or your boss to die. Whichever is sooner. You also wait for the prices to go down so that you can buy a new house, a new car, a new stove, a new dog, a new spouse maybe? You also got to get your kids married. So wait for your son to make this decision. And you son has this commitment phobia. So best of luck, you need it.
After 45, you wait for retirement. Those days when you can sit by beach and watch the sun go down and the stars come out. Basically the day when you can abuse the shit out of the guy who got the promotion which you deserved and walk off in all pride. Good fun I am sure.
And what after that? Your grandchildren’s marriage, I am sure. That’s what my granny is hoping for. Too much pressure!! And then eternal salvation? Or may be a new life where the wait continues?
Who knows?
Will wait and watch :)
Thursday, February 19, 2009
Heart Felt
If you cry,
i ll cry with you.
And hope that your tears,
dry up before mine.
If you hurt,
I ll fight the pain.
I ll hold you to my heart,
and stand with you till it fades away.
If you fall,
I ll pick u up.
And push you along,
till you find your way.
If you walk away,
i ll count the steps you take.
Till you look back
and realize i am still there.
If your world crashes someday,
i ll rebuild it piece by piece.
So that when you open your eyes
and look around you wouldnt even know the difference.
If you dont sleep some night,
I d stay up with you.
I d caress you till you are blessed with sleep,
and watch you till the morning light.
If you love someone else,
i ll get her for you.
Just to see you smile,
and hope that she loves you as much as i do.
And if someday you pray for something,
I ll ask God to relay those prayers to me.
So that i can be your angel
and make your every wish come true.
And if someday we have to part,
and for some reason, it cant be.
I d be a star to guide you at night,
and be a cloud and shade you from bright light.
So don’t go away,
Be with me, be the part that I lack.
Be my savior, be my prince,
And stay with me till the end of time.
PS : And after saying all this,
if you still wana go, i d let you go.
I ll slap the shit outta you,
but id let you go.
i ll cry with you.
And hope that your tears,
dry up before mine.
If you hurt,
I ll fight the pain.
I ll hold you to my heart,
and stand with you till it fades away.
If you fall,
I ll pick u up.
And push you along,
till you find your way.
If you walk away,
i ll count the steps you take.
Till you look back
and realize i am still there.
If your world crashes someday,
i ll rebuild it piece by piece.
So that when you open your eyes
and look around you wouldnt even know the difference.
If you dont sleep some night,
I d stay up with you.
I d caress you till you are blessed with sleep,
and watch you till the morning light.
If you love someone else,
i ll get her for you.
Just to see you smile,
and hope that she loves you as much as i do.
And if someday you pray for something,
I ll ask God to relay those prayers to me.
So that i can be your angel
and make your every wish come true.
And if someday we have to part,
and for some reason, it cant be.
I d be a star to guide you at night,
and be a cloud and shade you from bright light.
So don’t go away,
Be with me, be the part that I lack.
Be my savior, be my prince,
And stay with me till the end of time.
PS : And after saying all this,
if you still wana go, i d let you go.
I ll slap the shit outta you,
but id let you go.
Friday, January 9, 2009
Dream Dead
And slowly it unfolds. You see how its going to be. You see where all this is leading. You see your life infront of you. Everyday like the previous day. Every night like the previous night. You see days and days and no end to it. You dont see the end, because you are looking for it. The end eludes you.
You hear the sound of a hundred dreams shatter. The sound is deafening and gives you a throbbing headache but you keep your head high. You give up all hope but you dont cry. The world is watching, you cant afford too.
So you go on. Swallow the pain and move on. Resign to fate, the way others want it. Resign to the outcome of decisions that someone else took. You let them. The mistake you will always pay for.
And then they want you to excel. Excel at something you dont want to do. Achieve something you dont want to achieve. Be someone who is not you. And smile while doing it. Pretend to be happy or else they ll ask you why you aint smiling.
So dont let them know how weak you are, smile. Maybe it wont be so bad...maybe you can find a way to be happy..maybe...
You hear the sound of a hundred dreams shatter. The sound is deafening and gives you a throbbing headache but you keep your head high. You give up all hope but you dont cry. The world is watching, you cant afford too.
So you go on. Swallow the pain and move on. Resign to fate, the way others want it. Resign to the outcome of decisions that someone else took. You let them. The mistake you will always pay for.
And then they want you to excel. Excel at something you dont want to do. Achieve something you dont want to achieve. Be someone who is not you. And smile while doing it. Pretend to be happy or else they ll ask you why you aint smiling.
So dont let them know how weak you are, smile. Maybe it wont be so bad...maybe you can find a way to be happy..maybe...
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
Narcissism or just me?
I search for stars in the mumbai sky.
I cry when i see an animal in pain.
I wonder what did i do right to be on this side of the glass,
when i see the poor girl on the other side of my car window.
I wonder whats the old homeless woman's story.
I wonder would the trees ever saw us if they had a chance.
I wonder if there exists another earth where animals florish
and humans are on the verge of extinction.
I am a dreamer and my dream grows everyday.
I believe someday the world will be a better place.
I believe someday everyone will have equal rights.
I believe it wont be a big deal someday
if a dark skinned becomes the leader of fair skinned men.
I believe someday animals and humans will co-exist.
I believe someday the rain-forest will not be notebooks.
I believe someday a family will celebrate when a girl is born.
I believe someday humans will be humans.
i believe i can make a difference.
And nothing can change my belief.
I cry when i see an animal in pain.
I wonder what did i do right to be on this side of the glass,
when i see the poor girl on the other side of my car window.
I wonder whats the old homeless woman's story.
I wonder would the trees ever saw us if they had a chance.
I wonder if there exists another earth where animals florish
and humans are on the verge of extinction.
I am a dreamer and my dream grows everyday.
I believe someday the world will be a better place.
I believe someday everyone will have equal rights.
I believe it wont be a big deal someday
if a dark skinned becomes the leader of fair skinned men.
I believe someday animals and humans will co-exist.
I believe someday the rain-forest will not be notebooks.
I believe someday a family will celebrate when a girl is born.
I believe someday humans will be humans.
i believe i can make a difference.
And nothing can change my belief.
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